Girls being girls.

Last week's party. attending another one tomorrow. bringin' my infected throat in like a baus.

p/s: photographer actually chased the boys in our team out of the picture for this shot.


love,
yvonne

Restless Nights

like i promised these are pictures ripped off from those lovely peeps that are kind enough to take pictures during our night out. i do party, just occasionally. honestly if you ask me, compared to those days when going out on a friday and saturday night is a must, my stamina had gone down so much. 5 minutes on the dance floor is enough to make me feel extremely irritated, and not forgetting, tired. only 20 but i feel like i have to say - age is slowly creeping on me. right now it's like i'm fighting with my own thoughts between having to raise up the bars of sending myself out a little more, or just accept what my body is trying to tell me.

still, i really enjoyed that 2 nights in a row of drinking. boyfriend wasn't around (due to macau trip) and i realize my share market is still pretty high ;) hahahaha inside joke. one of my ex lecturer once told me and the girls that, it's necessary for us to go out and party once in a while, even if it's just sitting at the bar, minding your own business. pay attention to people that checks you out, or maybe those who directly buy you drinks. there you will know how much your share market still worth. so try it out! and of course, play safe about it. know your limits.

pictures!

also i finally bought myself an elmo shirt. favourite character out of sem street ever!

love,

yvonne

How many tattoos and piercing I have, finale.

finally manage to force myself in answering one of the most frequently asked question.

side note: i don't speak like that in real life, definitely, i'm still malaysian. it's just that i like things to be perfect especially for my blog which i had been spending so much time on throughout the years. you can say i am faking my accents or anything like that, everyone is obligated to their own respective opinions, i can't stop you; but personally all i want is to give you readers my best because this blog means a lot to me.

love,
yvonne

Summarizing my 'single' days

i honestly thought this is gonna be the worst lonesome chinese new year ever. i don't know if i ever mention this before but eujiin is out on trip to macau with his family, leaving me in his house alone like an abandoned pet. in conclusion, i got no work, no food, no transport, i really thought i was gonna rot till i shit bricks. thankful enough, i have a bunch of wonderful friends, we, have a bunch of wonderful friends. came here a year and a half ago and thanks to eujiin i met nearly all of the boyfriend's highschool chumps, even bonded with some of them better than he did. my social network (both virtual and reality) expanded way much further. my swag. i can't find the right words to express my gratitude for all the companies from them throughout this miserable week. especially zhengkai and his girlfriend felicia, because of them i don't have to sit home and munch on instant noodles. as a matter in fact, i never touch them either. both of them never hesitate in bringing me out for breakfast, lunch, dinner or even supper. not forgetting the sleepovers because they're afraid that i might get raped in the middle of the night.

felt so much love and once again. thank you :)

i am surprised also that within this week, i actually partied 2 nights in a row. which is extremely exhausting. also, i will blog about it another day once i get the full set of pictures. got the chance to meet up with the college love chumps as well.

as for my personal issues, i've been facing problems sleeping for the entire week. from this my skin turn out really bad and i have minor breakout across my face. its alright, the man is coming back tomorrow evening and hooray, i am pretty sure i'll get my cuddles and good night sleep again. :)

alright, gotta go. gong hei fatt choi!

muka busuk insomnia

love,
yvonne

Being 20

never too late! lots of people had did such great wonderful things for me and i feel so much shame for not actually nothing any of it down, so here it is.

a friend of mine got his new ink done on my birthday eve. personally i find it pretty memorable because he had always wanted another one somewhere around his wrist. when he finally got inked i happened to be snapping pictures around with the boyfriend's phone so this is it. everyone has a story.

eujiin was dying in bringing me to dine at shogun. as much as i love japanese cuisine and buffet, instead of spending that lump sum of money on just one restaurant, i suggested that we should spend our night together in different restaurants eating all kind of foods that i love.

i know how he had been saving up really really hard and i am so thankful to find someone that treats me so well. he is not perfect, but this man tries his best to make me happy. early to say this but he's someone i would love to marry someday.

enough of clishe-ness. with the 200 bucks book voucher given by the government. which i don't really care it's what i deserve anyway. i reward myself with a big book of logos. im a fucking happy kid. thought i will never get this ever because it fucking cost 150. sneak peaks!

my lovely boss and colleagues threw me a birthday surprise. and honestly i think they deserve the oscars. they're all so lovely and i am thankful for more than just the birthday surprise they threw, but also for the things they thought me.

not wanting to jinx anything, but the start of being 20 seems pretty good to me.

love,

yvonne

Transformation

i think i said this before but i'm saying it again, i rarely go out with my bare face, because sad to say, i let my insecurities took me over in this part. unless i have my glasses on, i don't feel comfortable with people staring at me without my make up on. this blog post might not be as drastic as any other transformation video or picture process of others out there, but it actually took me a certain amount of guts to actually post them.

i believe there are people who are really blessed and really, don't need make up at all to look presentable. but personally i had various experience where i go out with full face make up, people thinks it looks cakey; and when i don't put on any, people ask me am i fucking sick.

so this is just a short and lazy demonstration on how i put on so called 'acceptable' amount of make up whenever i'm going out for casual dates or maybe outings with friends. also, it took me years of practise to actually master the art of make-up. and honestly, i personally don't think putting on make up is artificial, well, depends on how a person applies it of course.

they're taken from my laptop camera, it gives a certain type of comfort because at least my imperfections are not detailed-ly captured. (crappy cameras has it's benefits too)

 bare face: dark eye circle, wrinkles, redness around the nose, pale chappy lips.

i don't put foundation because i'm too lazy, and i realize how it's the main reason why it makes a person's make up appear cakey. here i used only concealer. a very pigmented type of liquid foundation slightly lighter than your normal skin tone to cover up dark eye circle, redness and also acne scars.

trust me this makes major major difference.
 
 ignore the rashes on my shoulders. one side done and the other not. the difference varies so much.

once done i usually dust it all up with a very light amount of powder foundation. to lock the moisture of it and also to prevent face from looking oily.

my very trademark eyebrow is not god gifted, it takes lots of hardwork and years of practise. here you're looking at 2 patch of bushes where i had not been trimming for the past couple of weeks.

excuse me for posing disgustingly with a pair of brow scissors.

i am not tolerant enough for plucking my eyebrows. i hate the pain and i hate the redness that comes after it. thus, i trim. like a boss.

once done, i shade it off with some eyebrow powder to darken it. always choose a colour that is similar, or few shades lighter than your hair colour.

and then i proceed to draw my eyeliner. i always start off by tight lining my eyes - drawing the inner part of your lid as close as possible to the lashes. giving them the illusion where your eye lashes are as thick as amazon jungle. normally after this step i would just jump straight to mascara, but due to the reason i'm actually making sort of a tutorial, result is not really that obvious, so i drew on a winged eyeliner after tight linging for that tad bit of a lil dramatic effect.

 you could choose to put on mascara, or maybe not. thats personal preference. personally i hate mascara, because it clumps up and also it gives that sticky feeling whenever i blink.

once done, pose around for pictures and also camwhore till you're sick of your own face.

i used to be really sensitive with how i look when i go out, until last year, when i finally found a guy who loves me for who i am, and not how i look. it really doesn't matter anymore. my friends love me for who i am too, they love my jokes, not my face. how pretty i look, they'll still call me ugly anyway. now i go out often without puttin on anything but sunblock and lip gloss.

also always remember, always let your skin breath. too much make up 24-7 will clog up your pores resulting, break outs. i'm telling you all these because i been through, done that.

so that is it. Happy Chinese New Year guys!



love,
yvonne

THIS BLOG IS SO FUCKING DEAD

ANYWAY, I TURNED 20 TODAY!

shall come back and blog about stuffs during CNY break. for now, i really need some good sleep and more rest. work is really draining me out but my boss and colleagues are (i am saying this again) the nicest mentors an intern could ever ask for.

off to bed, tata.

love,
yvonne

Why I don't have an Iphone?

there is a reason why i came up with this topic, was sorting out pictures of me partying like a rock at sean's house during christmas eve, and there's a picture of me holding his iphone4, intruding his privacies.

wait for it..

tadaaaaah, also i'm wearing my fabulous grinch hat. latest trend for this season, believe me.

back to main point.

once upon a time, i used to be very fascinated by apple products. few years ago, to jump song tracks by shaking your gadget left to right like you have some sort of compulsive behaviour is the coolest thing ever. the feeling of learning something so 'new' was so overwhelming that it gets even worst once you look at the price they're offering you.

i never got any of them, okay, maybe an i-pod shuffle for my brother's birthday a couple of years ago, BUT i never got any of their stuff for myself. obviously because i'm too poor to afford one. also because i don't want to tie up stomach just so i could get a fancier gadget. eujiin and i both loved i-phones so much for it's structure, features, and all the amazing apps. it was almost unbelievable that so much could just fit in your hands. also you could just swap and juggle things around with the tip of your finger.

he got an i-phone 3gs back then and honestly, i was having a hard battle between blackberry bold and i-phone. not long after i went back home (real home) and my dad brought me out to get me a new phone. not because i itched for something fresh and new but my old one was fucking screwed. that time i told him i wanted to get a blackberry because during that period of time blackberry was leading the war.

after long conversations with the shop owner and also lots of thinking, he decided that he will not get me any smart phones. frankly speaking i was disappointed, tad bit a lil. but i couldn't disagree on the things he said. during that time blackberry was around 1.6 (i think) and i phone3g was around 2. a normal phone would only cost probably around 1.2 and that was considered enough to get super fine normal phone. few hundred only but that could feed me for a month.

how bad i really wanted it i still did not go like these bunch of people..

i agreed on my papi's words of wisdom and decided to get something 'normal'. i know he knew i was kinda sad. eventhou he said i could just get something normal, he picked something that is really similar to what i wished for. a nokia e72 :)

i know how my dad portray his love. he don't really show it but it's there, it's always there.

i am really thankful enough to have this eventhou it's not something fancy pancy or super fantastic. and to my surprise, it last me more than a year now. still going strong, still keeping my dirty text messages and my vain pictures. one funny thing is my dad thought i was literally devastated that he kept finding ways and reasons to cheer me up.

for example, how e72 and blackberry both have qwerty keypads.

nah, but really, i'm happy enough that i have a phone.

now all these might sound irrelevant. i am gonna do the explanation part now.

through out the year, apple has come out with all sort of 'different' models, we have the i-phone 4, 4s, now 5 is releasing soon too. don't forget they have pads, desktop, laptops, watches and anything you could possibly think of, just add a letter 'I' infront. people had been asking me why not i get an i-phone? and to eujiin, about why not change his old 3g to i-phone 4s. the thing is, we're not that forever alone enough that we need SIRI in our lives.

kidding. *realising its offensive*

the real reason is, we're so tired of how over rated apple is nowadays.

i went back my hometown half a year ago and all my friends were holding an iphone 4 in their hands. i bet this time i go back they'll be grabbing the same thing, with a 'S' behind. now I AM NOT JUDGING PEOPLE WHO OWNS AN I PHONE. basically, i think its just so over rated that kids world wide are dying to get one so that they could fit in. i think the image i posted above is doing the explanation. if i said those kind of things to my dad he's gonna fucking disown me.

to me, apple is just a money squeezer company. once you get attached to them, you're dead. every few months they release something 'new'. which obviously would turn out vice versa then. they know their die hard fans would find any way possible in getting one of their latest technologies. yes they're good, they're definitely good. but even when nowadays where many people are spending their hard earned money on their stuffs, i don't see them lowering their price at all. instead, it gets higher. you want a good earphone, get it for a few more hundred. you want portable speakers, few thousand. you want an original casing, hundred plus. i am sorry if im weird but it irritates me.

eujiin's laptop battery broke down a while ago and just for service they charged him 500 hundred plus. this is insanity! kids are dying out there and i'm not trying to sound like a saviour but that extra amount of money you paid for a phone could really do you so much.

who needs a better processor and a talking creepy voice that answers you gibberish. would you even ASK SIRI things  in public? imagine you're outside, in a bus station, and then you took out your phone and go, 'siri, tell me which bus should i take to go xxx'. honestly if i were to bump into someone like that, i'm gonna give them the weirdest look ever.

and a faster processor?! what the fuck you're gonna do with your phone anyway?! half of the people i know who owns an i phone don't even make much productivity with it. if you need a better processor so you could tweet, facebook, check in places and i don't know, what else? games? yea. oh well.

most importantly, i assume we're all internet addicts. owning a smart phone with BETTER processor and internet connection does not help at all. even with just eujiin's iphone 3g, everytime i go out i just can't stop my urge in goin on the internet. i finally realise the reason why at sean's house, i-phones are not allowed on the dining table. it's distracting. it fucking cuts you off with whatever that's happening around you and traps you.


in the end of the day, you might just think 'OWH SHE'S BASHING I-PHONE USERS BECAUSE SHE'S TOO POOR TO BUY ONE FOR HERSELF, POOR LITTLE JEALOUS BITCH' i don't really care; i don't care too if my friends and family own an i-phone. the main point of me writing this is because i really don't like when people ask me things like, 'why not getting a smart phone?' or 'why don't buy an i-phone?'. i know how of an internet freak i am and i'm not letting it taking over me. also i hate how apple company do their business. not forgetting i am a freaking student trying really hard to save each month so that i won't have to starve myself to death. won't know, maybe i'll ended up owning one in the end. it's just that, we should all evaluate how we see materials in life. appreciate everything you own and really, use your current phone till it's old, rusty and unusable.

also the real reason why they invented phone was for everyone to keep in touch; to connect. aren't calls and texts are more of the priorities? as long you could call someone when you're being raped thats enough.

i can wind longer on this. but i'm sleepy and i have work tomorrow.

leftover pictures from party rock in da house. looking red and bloated from all the whiskies served.

love,
yvonne

Obligations between work and life

chris brown-ed. kidding. life is just too hectic. must constantly remind self to stop rushing and breath.

eventhough i am always complaining bout how tired i am being completely drained out by work and all the shit that comes with it, i have to admit, i am enjoying everything in my very own way. this might sound so dull and boring for all the working class people out there but personally, i feel like this internship period is like a big stepping stone for my career in future. i am feeling like an adult these days. the urge to actually go home and have a good rest had never felt so strong before. double checks on informations put on adverts, fulfilling customer's tiny little requests, to bear with people's attitude and the must to put on a smiley face even when your superior place another file on to your list of things to do. my schedules are just so jam packed that i am literally jealous, at people who update their status bout their plans and activities to party.

everyday i am handling few thousand value contracts and the pressure is, i assure you, so much more to handle than handing your assignments on time. its a good thing. definitely. some people may think that my company is using me as much as possible because i am just an intern and i would do anything to have a good report from my boss, but the benefits i gain is good experience, improvement in skills and also, the ability to communicate better with people outside the box.

learned better in appreciating good music, also a nice cup of tea to keep me awake for the day. weekends and short breaks had never felt so gifted before. i have come to know that a lot of people out there are also starting work and also interns, mostly spm graduates and also, college uni students. well, all the best to all of you!

the hardship you go through each day is all for a better future. :)

love,
yvonne